I have problem with Blogger~

Due to my swaying mood and inspiration.
I wanted to change the domain name to the blog that I am currently using.
Alas, it erupted a new problem where the old post can't be seen.
And new posts won't appear on the reading list.

So I have moved the blog to a new domain that still include the old post same as here.
But with a new title.
So that it can be easily searched by many~

New site >.<

I'm sorry for the inconvenience.
Hope you will enjoy my newest entry tomorrow on 0012 hours.

Nearly 3 full year...

Wednesday, 18th of June 2014, 1413 hours...

When 1st September come,
It will be a full 3 year that I have spent my time on my degree.
And yet I have to add another year to it because of my stupidity.

I am not an educated person.
I know I'm not.
But apparently in life you need that one piece of paper called degree or diploma to be more successful.

Hateful Heart

Monday, 22nd of July 2013, 0530 hours.

Have you ever hate yourself so much that you even thought that you, yourself should not even exist.
I am currently thinking that way.

I hate my self.
I hate how I am lazy and unproductive towards life but still laze around on the floor reading 'mangas'* and sleep almost half of the day.
I hate how I am incapable to motivate my self in doing anything big and impressive.
I hate how I spend to much on foods.
I hate how I dont know how to manage my funds.
I hate everything about me.

But I know this will not even dent my laziness and unthrifty barrier at all.
I hate my self...

Trying to write more,

I'm BLB~

Tuesday, 30th April 2013, 1136.

Today,
It's been a long time since I wrote anything due to there was nothing that was worth typing about.
But now, today, I have a little complaint about my life again.

It all started on last Friday.
I went to my campus with the 9 o'clock bus in the morning.
I went to wait for my friend to finish her class at 10.
While waiting, I usually will browse 9gag and Facebook or anything that was interesting for that hour.
But it all went wrong when my laptop, Kuro, wont turn on and kept on asking for me to fix his malfunction using the Fujitsu default tools.

Betrayal

Betrayal,
Have you ever felt the greatest betrayal?
By the hands of your kin and close friends.

They have struck my soul to the core.
They have tore my essence to pieces.
Leaving me on the depth of the abyss.
Roaming the darkness of sorrow.

None have lend their hand to pull me up.
None notice the disappearance of my being.

There I lie on the ground so cold.
Waiting for someone to at least shed a tear to my desolate world.

Bored #6

7th of October 2012, 2342 hours.

I'm bored, always am...

But today I'm even more bored.
It's not like I dont have work that I have to do.
It's just that my weekend seems dull and uninteresting.
Even though my assignment are blowing to the roof, still dont have the urge to do it.

Why am I like this always???
Am I that stupid or something...

Bored and stale...

Ache...

4th of October 2012, 0105 hour.

My day was as splendid as any other day...

Sun was shining brightly for my path...

Present of happiness was open one by one...

Smiling together we had fun...

Apparently my night wasn't the same...

Came the two visitor of sorrowful heart...

Seeking refuge on a broken hope...

Taking their damages the hope is left...

Tears welling up no one who cared...

Except one of the broken piece...

Together we sit...

Fixing what was left after the storm and thunder...

Our hands full of bruises...

Scars never seem to heal...

Our own heart left on the floor, dusty ever rotting...

Dry tears on our cheeks ever unseen...

No one seem to be near when are the visitor of sorrow except for each other we turn...

Thus the story still continues as tomorrow to come.

Thank you,

One Week~

12th of September 2012, 1958 hours.

It's been nearly one week since I came back to UTeM.
I finally got to be roomie with my friend.
The residential college we got was perfect.
We got a room just for the both of us.
But the sad part is that the location of our place is far away from any restaurant and mart.
Plus cheap transport like bus doesnt come where we're at.
We need to literally walk for a while to a place where the bus is frequently come and go.

That's it for now~

Sincerely,

Quick Sand Syndrome

17th of August 2012, Friday.

I was so happy when my parents and siblings came today at 0630 hours.
But it quickly escalated to despair as the minute past by with our interaction thus the 'Quick Sand Syndrome'.

I was trying to avoid my mother because I didnt want her to ask me about my freaking result.
Alas, I failed.
She caught me in front of my laptop so she asked.
I was reluctant to show her.
Yet, I still showed to her.
What a good daughter I am...
Well, back to the current issue.

I showed her and she just stares at the result at first.
Then she kept asking question like 'How are going to graduate if your CGPA is that low?', 'What are going to do if they kick you out?', 'Work, but you're a lazy-boned girl?' and others that I didnt quite hear due to I'm trying to block her presence out of my mind.

I dont know the answer to those questions...
All I can do now is just pray that I'll be okay until the end of my life.

Stuck deep in the gutter,

Conditional approval

13th of August 2012, Monday.

Now for muslim, its the month of fasting, Ramadhan.
And on the 23rd of Ramadhan is my birthday on the Hijiri Calendar.
So, basically yesterday was my birthday too aside from the normal calendar.

Yesterday, at 1700 hours, my grandma and I arrived at my uncle house in Kelantan, Malaysia by bus, in the celebration of the upcoming Syawal where all of our close relative would gather to celebrate.
We came first due to most of the children are still have school and the adults havent receive their days off yet.
I'm basically still in my holidays and I dont want to sit stuck in a car without enough space to even stretch your legs.

So now that I finally have internet connection, I can browse for my results on my finals last semester.
I know it was bad but I didnt expect it to be that bad.
I got pointer below 2.0...
I'm so dead if my parents were to find out about this.
I hope to get back to class to escape from my parents wrath~

Scared to the core of my soul,

Finally~

11th of July 2012, Wednesday, 0121.

At last~
Internet connection.
I've been away from it for like 18 days.
It feels like 2 month.

I feel so left out without internet connection.
But this still not enough.
It's not fast enough.

T_T

Uni Life...

7th of June 2012, 1538.

Just spent my daylight inside the library on the Main Campus.
Not particularly studying for my final.
Just been sitting around,
Downloading stuff.

I've been broke about few weeks already from my student loan.
So right now, my parents are providing me with money as they can.
My parents arent rich people so I didnt expect to be dump a load of cash out front.

Well,
Now I'm barely full with anything but beggars cant be chooser.

Broke,

Bored #5

7th of June 2012, 0118.

Panic and dumbfounded by my own stupidity...

Sigh...

I panic because the last hour to send my work for extra mark was on June 7 2012, 11:59 p.m. and when I looked at the clock it was already 1 in the morning.
I was cursing myself non-stop...
Then a sudden realization.

'I still have like 23 hours to send it before it close the site...'

 I curse myself some more before sending it.

I feel so pathetic.

T_T

Dumbfounded,

Bored #4

5th of June 2012, 0159.

Due to stress and boredom,

I decided to butt in on one of my old friend since Matriculation on one of her post in Facebook.

She posted about her blog.
It's about early marriage.

Bored #3

4th of June 2012, 2109.

Currently being blown with boredom and no will to do my assignments...

Have been goofing around since I woke up.

Went to Mydin (It's like a mall) to shop around for food for the last three week I'll be in University.

Still, the boredom is still there.

Still goofing around in my room like typing this post and eating my chicken popcorn that I bought during my trip.

I'm bored~!!!

Bored,

She's going to BLOW UP~!!!

30th of May 2012,

It's literally 3:30 in the morning.

I'm still not done with my Database project, my Math assignment, my Data Structure and Algorithm group assignment, and my Operating System group assignment.

Plus, all of them need to be done by today and tomorrow.

Dark day...

13th April 2012, Friday...

That is a lot of bad luck in one lifetime even if I dont believe in those things...
Well,
Today did gone for the worse that I could ever imagine.

My 2nd lil bro just got 2 interviews from different University that he pick.
But one of the interview requires you to stay there for 4 days.
He planned to skip that interview and go to the other one.

Finger Choker...

Wednesday, 14 of March 2012.

There was a PC fair at UTeM.
So there was a lot of shops that sell stuffs.
One of them was a ring shop.

Due to the lost of my precious butterfly ring.
I decided to buy another ring.

This time the seller carved my name onto it after I chose one.
I asked him to carve my deviant name which was...

" Laika Zuain Ramtus "

Now it will wound up my left finger or right.

My heart, soul and body...

March. 3rd. 2012. Monday. 0155.

Due to some complication of my action,
I've made some people fall into a few predicaments in these two past month.

Yes, they got mad at me and scold me and threaten me and all.
I dont mind because I know it is MY fault that it happened that way.
And yet my mind kept contemplating about how stupid I was and how useless I was to the group.
If they were to kick me out of the group,
I was ready for it.
But they went lenient on me by giving me a chance with a warning of course.

BoReD #2

12 February 2012 / 2131 hours,
Laying around in bed.
Bored and unmotivated by anything.

Kept browsing 9gag non-stop since it took my soul~
But day by day, I grew tired of re post, unrelated to gag images and other stupid unrelated things that shouldnt be on the site.
Still, I kept browsing the same site over and over again.
Sigh,
That's how bored I am.