Hateful Heart

Monday, 22nd of July 2013, 0530 hours.

Have you ever hate yourself so much that you even thought that you, yourself should not even exist.
I am currently thinking that way.

I hate my self.
I hate how I am lazy and unproductive towards life but still laze around on the floor reading 'mangas'* and sleep almost half of the day.
I hate how I am incapable to motivate my self in doing anything big and impressive.
I hate how I spend to much on foods.
I hate how I dont know how to manage my funds.
I hate everything about me.

But I know this will not even dent my laziness and unthrifty barrier at all.
I hate my self...

Trying to write more,

I'm BLB~

Tuesday, 30th April 2013, 1136.

Today,
It's been a long time since I wrote anything due to there was nothing that was worth typing about.
But now, today, I have a little complaint about my life again.

It all started on last Friday.
I went to my campus with the 9 o'clock bus in the morning.
I went to wait for my friend to finish her class at 10.
While waiting, I usually will browse 9gag and Facebook or anything that was interesting for that hour.
But it all went wrong when my laptop, Kuro, wont turn on and kept on asking for me to fix his malfunction using the Fujitsu default tools.

Betrayal

Betrayal,
Have you ever felt the greatest betrayal?
By the hands of your kin and close friends.

They have struck my soul to the core.
They have tore my essence to pieces.
Leaving me on the depth of the abyss.
Roaming the darkness of sorrow.

None have lend their hand to pull me up.
None notice the disappearance of my being.

There I lie on the ground so cold.
Waiting for someone to at least shed a tear to my desolate world.